The Special Feeling

There are a few things in life that no matter how hard you tried you could never quite explain in words the internal feeling inside that you get.  Off the top of my head, I can think of a few times in my life when I felt such a strong special feeling of this nature; graduating from college, getting engaged, my wedding day, finding out I was pregnant, and lastly and perhaps the biggest one - Giving birth and meeting my child for the first time!!

No matter how hard you try, you could never explain with words the emotions you have when they lay your child in your arms for the first time and you get to officially meet him or her.  There are NO words to express this special feeling, its just something that you must experience first hand.

The good thing about these particular feelings, is that as a parent I don't think they ever go away.  And you can somewhat recreate them on a daily basis if you desire.

For me this can easily be done at bedtime. You see, we have our perfect little bed-time routine down.  Starts with a bath, then a "burrito wrap" in a towel, brush the teeth, head to the room for lotion application, diaper/pull up, pj's, and then book selection.  Once the books have been selected we gather "B" (Will's Blankie) and "deer" (his favorite stuffed animal) and curl up together on the leather rocker recliner in his room.  We usually read 2-3 books, then put them to the side and turn out the lamp.  At that point it is time to sing a song or two (usually special requests are made; Boom Boom, A-B, or Baa-baa...I have a very bossy child).  After songs we just rock a few minutes....there in the dark, just the two of us.  This is a moment when I can always bring that special feeling back.  I look down into his precious eyes and kiss his forehead, and know that I (with the help of my husband) created this beautiful little boy.  I always take a moment to breathe him in.  With the faint smell of our Johnson & Johnson's baby wash and powder scented lotion I get flashbacks of him being an infant and us sitting in that same chair, rocking together and drifting off to sleep.   It's gorgeous to know that special feeling and I couldn't imagine it ever being taken away.

So to all the parents out there, I urge you...find your special way to bring back that special feeling of meeting your child for the first time.  And on the hard days, or the rough days when nothing seems to be going your way, or your child is acting up and you can only imagine shutting yourself in your room just to escape... recreate that special feeling.  See if it doesn't just take your breath away and make you forget all the stress.

And tonight...when I'm cleaning up potty training accident number 785; I'll do my best to think of that moment and let it take my breath away.  You see no one is perfect, and no one will ever be.  There's no such thing as a perfect parent, a perfect child, a perfect moment...but there can be a Special Parent, and a Special child, and many, many Special Moments! 

Here's to those!

Will (21 mths), June 2010 - Riding the Train on his first trip to Disney

Summa Summa Summa Time!

So, it has been a while since I've checked in!

Summer has began and I've been trying to get as much beach time in before the oil spill in the gulf completely ruins it.  So sad what is going on with the whole oil spill.

With the beginning of summer, also brings the beginning of party planning mode for me.  I'm already throwing together ideas for Will's 2nd birthday party.  I have a list already begun, and ideas bouncing around my head.  We're going with a train theme for this one...trains are pretty much the only thing on his brain lately,  so we can't go wrong with a train party.

Wes and I have also been diligently trying to get lingering unfinished projects on the 'completed' list.  So far the "completed" list is non-existant.  But we'll get there eventually.

I have this grand idea that I'm going to start sewing custom car seat covers for Britax carseats.  I decided this when I went to purchase one for Will and realized that people are charging $70-$110 for them!  I almost fell out of my desk chair.  I've decided this will be that "2nd" job that I can get for more shopping money.  Only problem is, is that I 1-Don't know how to sew; 2. Don't really have the time 3. Don't know how to sew.

I figure I'm going to give it a go and make an attempt.  I think I SORT of know what I'm doing, and for some reason think that I can just figure the rest of it out. HA!  I'll let you know how that goes.  I'm sure that process will make for a fun entry!

Well, gotta run!  It's Friday night and for the first time in a LONG time we have NO real plans for the weekend!  Whooo-hooo!!  Guess it means closet organizing and house work this weekend.